Crazy Love

19 07 2006

2 Kings 17:40,41
They would not listen, however, but persisted in their former practices. Even while these people were worshiping the LORD, they were serving their idols. To this day their children and grandchildren continue to do as their fathers did.

James 3:17, 18 (NIV) But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere. Peacemakers who sow in peace raise a harvest of righteousness.

People (we) are funny.  Not funny ha-ha, but funny weird.  God offers us so much — the abundant life, but we don’t take it.  It is almost as if someone appeared on our doorstep and offered us a billion dollars.  Yet we say, "No, I think I only need $1000."  Why are we so reluctant to have it all?  What is it that hinders us?

Then, when I read how this affects my children and grandchildren, ouch!  Last night my daughter woke up and I went in to tend to her.  The only thing she wanted was her Mommy.  But there are two problems with this.  First, Mommy is exhausted and needs a break.  She will be a better Mommy if she can get enough sleep.  Second, there isn’t anything Mommy can do for a restless daughter at 3:30am that Daddy can’t do.  Once she figured out that Mommy wasn’t coming — this after much thrashing, screaming, and wailing, she asked me if she could go potty.  I took her.  Then she asked for a drink and I gave her water.  Then she curled up in my arms and went to sleep while I told her of my love for her.

I was beside myself with love for my daughter.  I told her I’d do anything for her — anything in her best interests.  I told her how much God loves her and how He too would do anything for us.  He was even willing to die for us.  I would easily die for my daughter — if it was the right thing.  Only God has that kind of wisdom and discernment.  As I expressed my love for my daughter, she drifted off to sleep.

The whole experience made me realize how terribly in love God is with me (us).  He is crazy about me.  And when i scream and thrash because I don’t get my way, he is patient, kind, gentle, yet firm.  He will do anything for me in my best interests.  When I resort to sins, worshipping idols (TV, food, people, possessions, etc), or dysfunctional behavior, he looks at me with pity and asks me to trust Him.

It is hard for me to trust — I DON’T know why!!!  But I know I’m not alone.  It is a human thing.  So, why not be a real risk taker and trust implicitly?  Why not take the real leap and leave all the false gods behind?  Why not accept God’s unconditional love — that makes my love for my daughter seem like a drop in the ocean — and walk with Him in complete trust?

I am crazy about my wife and daughter — But God is more crazy about me.  That affects me in ways I can’t explain.

It is time for me to understand that kind of love, but I’ll never be able to — it is too big for me to get my mind around.

Father God — When I recall the way I felt last night, and then transpose that into our relationship, it overwhelms me.  You ARE awesome.  I do need to "be still and know that you are God."

I love you too God!






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